Beth, seriously, all this "I'm not pretty, I need a boyfriend" stuff needs to stop. Before you can love someone else, you need to love yourself. A boyfriend is nice, but he can only make you feel okay for so long. If a boy is the only thing making you feel good about yourself, that isn't enough, because without him you're back to being miserable. You are the only thing you are guaranteed.
i just nee to feel wanted by someone for just a little. try being single for as long as i have and go through what ive been through and then see how you feel.
also never said i need a boyfriend. just want someone to actually not think im gross.